Butterflies!

I miss seeing butterflies. Back in Georgia we had honeysuckle and some pretty red and yellow flowers that attracted butterflies by the dozens and even a few hummingbirds. But the butterflies I'm mentioning today are not outside, but inside. Yes, belly-butterflies usually associated with stage fright, though in my case are more connected to excitement.

I just packed my suitcase. But I feel like, "I just packed my suitcase!!!!!!!!" I am very excited. (!!!) I am almost ready to go.

I haven't let myself process the fact that I'm leaving yet. For so long I had to concentrate on school and tests and studying that I didn't want to distract myself by being excited about going to the Logos II again. It helped, if that's the right term, that I had one class that I was very worried about. It kept me concentrated on schoolwork. I just couldn't seem to get my bearings in that class; it was very hard, and I studied till my eyes bled from strain (okay, not quite, but almost!) but I just couldn't get anywhere. I failed more than one test, and I was worried. It took all semester, but gradually I realized that I was not trusting God. The reason I was so stressed was because I was worried about losing my scholarship and having to take the class over again and what if I failed it again? It all boiled down to whether or not I trusted God to get me through and that whatever happened next would be for my good and learning. It was very hard. Then I took the final exam and I felt that I had done horribly on it. I had to wait a week before I found out my grade.

I passed. Barely. And I got a B- in the class. I think I learned a good lesson, and I'm glad I didn't have to fail the class in order to learn it!

So now I'm really excited about leaving. Finals are all over, and I worked extra hours last week since my bosses are being very nice about letting me leave and come back in two months.

My suitcase is packed, in more than one use of the word; it was full, then I stuffed socks and underwear into every crevasse and cranny. So now it is really and truly Packed.

Maybe I'll keep my blog updated while I'm gone. Ha. Yeah right. Well, I guess it's possible.

I'm leaving tomorrow at 4:30am. Fun fun fun. Poor Mom has to drive me to the airport. We're just glad the airport is less than 3 hours away!

Well, the butterflies are fluttering again, tickling my ribs and reminding me that I have other things I need to be doing right now. I shall heed their call and get busy again. And really, it's almost as nice to have butterflies inside as to have them outside. :-)